me and my MD sisters playin it up at o.c.

sigh....good good times.

finally done.

reallife.

1. job

2. place

3. satisfaction

4. grad school

5. wat am i doing???

CT: Crap-Town

MD: Money-Dame

VA: Visceral-Asymptote

i miss the sisters, the brothers, the mother, the father, the annoying ones, the cool ones, the lazy ones, the ambitious ones, the smart ones, the dumb ones, the loving ones, the callous ones, the rough ones, the soft ones, the loud ones, the quiet ones, the hungry ones, the full ones, the crazy ones, the sensible ones, the ones who i love outloud, the ones i have secret soft spots for, the one and only Jenn C n Nate H.

i will miss the innovators, the potheads, the drunks, the revolutionaries, the stereotypes, the crazy whites, the crazy minorities, the intellectuals, the posers, the rich, the poor, the superficial, the indifferent, the conflicted, the unstable, the sensible, the ambition, the religious, the cussers, the new york, the chicago, the few, the rare, the status quo, the ones who i love outloud, the ones i have secret soft spots for, the one and only Latia M n my AAA ladies n Michele C (n of course Byron my tightass oppa) all the ones who mess up, all the ones who do it up right.

a free-write exercise....crazy:

11.05

Runt. I only said runt

to her face not the other word so calm down

and chill out save

your emotional unparalleled catharsis for

another awkward moment during

a final drought of the spirit so i tell

you cleave body from soul

and eat your damn profiterole dont

excuse the cream on your lips you paralyzed

glassy-eyed b**** and stay predictably

in the limbo between entrance and exit

do i seem preposterous? loving the tactile

instead of the thick wool wall you pull

over your own eyeballs come slide

with me out of the nile and into the nile

of fertile oaks and raisins and proverbial ripples

you can dip your fingertips in gentle and supple

but please don't mind my sacrilegious logorrhea i'll

just see ya when i see ya. 

yea yea mabuhay 2006.
gonna miss this.
but real life is calling.

those of you who are asking: mabuhay is my school's asian american show. and im doing spoken word. it was hooooot.

borrowed from the scandalous rachel "duckie" kwak:

women tend to cheat more during the time of the month where they are most fertile (two weeks before their period)
they are also likely to use less protection with the other man.

women have market values that are calculated (consiously or subconsiously) in a man's brain. 
the market value determines whether or not she is good enough for the male to pass his genes on.
factors that bring down a woman's market value:
she's not a virgin
she's had children before
she's been ill before
she's older. (the younger, the more fertalizable she it)

image wise, it depends on the economic status. in low economic societies, women with higher body mass have a higher market value. in high economic societies, women with a better waist-to-hip ratio have higher market value.

but in the end, the market values are set upon the males' views on the females.

if a girl is hit on at a club, she knows that her market value is high. she can reject the male.
but, there's always that one guy who thinks she is not good enough.
so the female will do what she can to raise her market value, even though her friends and family say that she is gorgeous, it does not matter to her because there was that one male who thinks she is not good enough.

strangely enough, the female will always think or go back to try and get this male to prove herself and to him that she has a high market value.

this explains abusive relationships. the woman stays with the abusive male.  he is abusive because he does not believe she has a high market value, and the female will do what she can to prove to him that she is valuble.

men are always in competition with each other to find the best mate for their genes.
the amount of sperm they produce depends on the amount of time spent (not sex) physically seeing the female. 
the more time they actually see their partner, the less sperm is produced.
the less time they see their partner, then more sperm is produced.
the brain calculates this amount of time and adjusts the amount of sperm produced.
the male believes if the female is not within their sight, then there are posssibly other males who are after the female.
this explains why after wars (WWII) there was the baby boom.

also, studies have shown that men have better quality and quantity sperm when they see men in porn. 
they showed a group of college men two images, one with one female and two men, another of three women.
after collecting the "data", men produce more and better sperm after seeing the one female with two men. 
subconsiously, the brain sees the two men as competition and adjusts the sperm content.

......fascinating. ...